Grief

 I am taking a moment out of my #Logistic posting and being real.... I lost a friend/sister.. One of my very first when I moved to Florida after being transferred... This grief is brutal, unpredictable, and exhausting. It comes in waves, some small, some big enough to knock you off your feet. But I know that I am not alone in it. We must take it moment by moment, and be gentle with ourselves.


Grief.. I thought I was finally leaving you behind me.. Until the call came and they said she's gone.
You were up and talking just hours before, laughing and missing your kitties and parents. Surgery went well; you were just a little sore.
Grief, your bring these the all too familiar feelings... rage, my breath hitches and a wail I never heard before escaped. Different from every other pain I have felt... How can you grief??? Just rip me apart like this... How can this pain be fresh and new never felt like this, yet so familiar.
Grief, I truly thought you couldn't break my heart more than it already has been... Yet here you are. taking my hand in yours... wrapping your arms in this twisted but comforting embrace. Gently whispering, reminding me.. how you never truly leave..
Grief, you told me that with time, the reason we feel as if we can move forward and leave you behind, is due to how father times slowly pulls the ache, filling it up with all of our jagged pieces scattered throughout our body...It becomes a lighter memory... Every memory shared... Every song played and the love shared allows the pain to be a balm... Yet You never leave us. Knowing that until our last breath you will be there every step..On days we lose someone... you hold us as emotions held in place find their way to the surface... to start grieving all over again..

Sweet Kelly Belson, you will forever be missed...

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